Tuesday, September 05, 2006

The more I get to know ,

Since coming here, My husband has come across making more people and befriending them then I have, and the man he now calls apon has been such a friend , That I have to bend my head in shame that I misjudged this man. He had so much to him then meets the eye. Yesterday , he came to the house and sat down and talked to Hank, telling him that he needed to change his habit . To stop drinking, and then told him of what could have happened if the officer he knew did what he could have. I mean , what I understand , that this officer could have taken him in for the drunk driving since it was his car that Hank was using to get around in, since our truck is down right now.
I was so glad that he stopped by, to lay it all out for him, and what he would have done, He could have gotten so upset with Hank that he would have gotten into a fight, Hank had also damaged his car, which he can't remember doing.
There are still things I don't agree with Jim about, how he is rasing his children, yet I am not a parent, and his way of doing things is all up to him. and I need to stop standing in judgment of this man, who has proven himself to be such a friend. I knew there was a reason why I choose him over Daniel . He has good charter . He has some part of him that he has come to trust . He knows what and knows what he doesn't want in his life . And he has cut back on drinking , and tells Hank he needs to stop!

Friday, July 28, 2006

truly the dearest friend


Friendship is an amazine thing, This woman has been a God sent to me, Without her, I would have never known how to handled country life, I have called her many times since moving here to Tennessee, when there wasn't any water, since a storm had knocked out the elerticy and the pump in the water house was not pumping the water into the house, it was through her that we needed to turn off the pump and restart it or the pump would burn out ,something we couldn't afford happen, And then when the water froze, (we wasn't all of the water ,just the hot water, )she would tell me to let it be until the weather warmed up, and things would be back to normal , And it did , She is also the one that would send me a box filled of things to do , Pillow cases to work on , since my husband would go off somewhere leaving me alone here in the new house , far away from family and friends, many a nights spent calling her , when he wasn't home and crying on her shoulders about how things were going here , and when I made my recent trip back home, to see family and freinds , She made sure that I saw as many of old friends ,co/works as she should round up,. She also went through her can goods to see what she wanted to give me, that she knew she could know longer eat , for health reasons . or want to take with her since she was moving herself , and I was grateful for it, I have learned not to turn my noise up at anything like those gifts. Since living here , and money has been tight , our dream has been a rough one , I have learned to recievce what ever I am giving, But this lovely woman gives without looking for anything in return, she has blessed me with her loving heart and gives, even when she too is having it hard, For my birthday , her gift to me was money, and with those can goods she kindly gave me , she went out of her way to buy me stationary , tablets to write my many letters to all of my loved ones , only because I told her I was running out of them. This is truly Gods angel , he blessed the earth with such a love. from a person I would have never thought could be, TRuth be, our first meeting , this woman and I , never got off to a great start. this was souly because of me, I only saw what I wanted and couldn't see past my blinders, When I think we may have never befriended each other, I am shamed,
The thing is , don't judge , keep an open mind and to hell what others may say . Live your life , love those that come into your life for who they are, and be so humble that you have what you do. GOD DOESN"T BRING THOSE PEOPLE INTO YOUR LIFE FOR NOT , THERE IS REASONS, IF IT IS ONLY TO SEE WHAT YOU ARE MADE OF . LOVE IS EVERYTHING !

Saturday, July 08, 2006

hard to understand



I have always wonder why I became friends with Lynnie, She without a doubt a caring person, but the exstream that you can't bare it any longer. I know truthly why I became her friend, there was something me that thought I could shine some kind of light on how the real world works. But instead I learned something, you can't change a person unless they are willing to do it themself , She is a beautiful person, she will only give as much as she is willing give , she places to much of a high standard, that no one can fit, she will speak what she feels and doesn't care how it will hit home, she isn't open to anything that doesn't meet her money type, She pushes to please men in a way that a woman think she has to lose weight , getting made up. I guess that is why she has as much as she does.
The truth , I would have never befriended her back then, her know it all attitude just rubbed me the wrong way, but as I have read , that there must have been something of her in me , to get to me like that. That is how I felt about Virginia , she would go out of her way to make friends, but I wouldn't ( back than) to make friends with her, just because she would do things that I thought she should have not done, and in the end we became the closets of friends , I love her, without thinking she has called me supported me in all that I had done, she went out of her way to be there for my niece, who thought she had breast cancer, she talked her through it and was there when I moved miles away, she sent me a box of pillow cases to craft, when living out here in the country and feeling alone, she was and has been the one that I have called apond when I needed a shoulder, She has asked me why I wouldn't have made friends of her earlier in our working life together, I couldn't tell her ashamed to say why. Because I saw in you , something I didn't care to see in myself . Even though I have these two friends , to which they are the same as well as different, Virginia is the one that stands out most to me, with little she has she gives the most, what Lynnie has , the more she give the lest, but should this stop the love of friendship ? I think knot, because love it love, it isn't givin on wether you can get the most out of your friend or how little, It is the friendship of support , the understanding you can give .
Who is to say what kind of friend I am to them, I do know what kind of friendship I have to give and what I get from the both of them, I get to look at myself through them to understand a bit about who I am or who I don't want to be , They are the mirrors of the soul. They are put there in my life path to learn something and I have and will as the time allows me to learn from the both of them,
I have lost friends just a Jan and many others Sue They have left me for one reason or another, I had to learn that too and I do understand, That I wasn't much of a friend then, what is the saying what goes around comes around , but they were at one time a part of my life that was needed to go, and now they aren't. I have set out with two new friends that have given me another step of my life to learn from. Growth is a hard part to life. But a part we all have to take.